have u ever

This may seem weird but has anyone ever come to a stage where everything in their life just sucked really bad?

well bout this time 2 years ago everything in my life just hurt really bad. Nothing was going good, i had only just started to realise the feelings i had of pain and worthlessness that i would have felt round the time my dad left, if i hadnt pushed them deep down. (if u dont get what im saying just ask)

Any way, what im getting at is when my dad decided that he had nothing to do with me and left us, i felt like i had to be the strong one in my family and without knowing i was pushing my feelings far down deep within me but i had no idea that they would be released when i started to think deeply bout that day.

What happened was in yr 11 i decided that i wanted my art folio to mean alot so i did my whole assignment on my father and how it reflected onto me. without knowing that, when i opened those feelings up it hurt me like a bomb. lol.

There wasnt one night that went by that i didnt cry and that lead to all sort of things, drinking, depression, hating myself, hurting myself etc.

But if u ask me now how my life is the answer will be GREAT!!! the thing is after i had handled those feelings and managed to get through it all i have been able to see how God has just been with me the whole entire time.

So my point that i have been tring to get to is that sometimes things may not be going well and believe me i know but God is going to use each and everyone of u in the most bestest way possible. I know u may hear this all the time but think about it really deeply cos i believe that God put me through those hard time to help others and help me find out who i am...